Ramblings

I is got a mini headache and am reeally tierd of a long day..
and am waiting for my room to get cold so i can sleeeeep

Kristen all of a sudden disapeared... Kristen ??
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I never had any sisters,, and i have 2 bros.. I wonder what would be like if i had a sister.. i never wanted one when i was a teen.. coz i went to the kind of schools where girls get hit on.. and being the Arabified Arab gulfified sa3eedi... if i had a sister and you look at her id like beat the living shizzle out of you.

and like the last thing you wanna do is always keeping an eye on your sister and getting beat up by bigger boys.. then id have to like put a pipe in my bag or something..

I remember in 10th grade when I told my parrents about going to the school prom, my mum was like if you had a sister would you let her go.. i was like Hell NO!... she was like then we shouldnt let you go.. i was like no am a guy its ok.. she s like but its not fair she doesnt go.. I was like whatever.. she was like i would let her go.. i said i wouldnt.. she: but I said i would.. me: I dont care what you say she wont go thats it period by force.. LOL..

I remember i had a friend his sister wore hijab and never talked to guys.. he never had to worry about her.. he3 but i never thought about it back then.. well actually i was like she would HAVE TO wear all black... i dunno where do i get all this from.. maybe fitra... a lot of my school friends are totally brain fried in ideology somehow a lot of the egyptians and pakistanis have retained their Islam.. many of the kuwaitis are just out of the galaxy.

I was wondering whats it like.. to live with another woman... then you would have to take care of everyhting in the house and not leave anything broke... and it has to be all tidy all the time ? or maybe she was living a bachelors life??

and you can no longer cook for the sake of food content.. taste too ?? well maybe i wont have to cook anyways.. but its not fair she makes me food like 5/6 times a day.. i dont think she would even have to cook me anything.. oh well...

I was going to write something serious today but things came up... please pray for me.

what makes me endure so much is the state our Ummah is in.. sometimes i think i would not be into the deen if it werent for that... alhamdullelah i was created in such a time.. where am more likely to be into the deen i guess.... I remember once i was realllly sick and like telling myself this is too much id rather die.. then i was like hell no i got stuff to do before i die.....

may Allah make use of me for this Ummah...
astaghfur Allah wa 2atoob 2ilayh