Oink Oink

So Wednesday morning I went to school as usual and had double Media in the morning and sat beside a girl called Hannah, so that was all good. Anyway, by about 1pm I had started to feel ridiculously drained for no good reason and thank God I brought my car to school that day, because I had study last. Anyway, about a quarter of the way into my ICT lesson I made up some lie that I was "Going to the library to do some photocopying." or something, and needless to say the greatest teacher on earth didn't think to question. Anyway, I went home and just started feeling like total shit!

So I had an afternoon nap and woke up even more tired which is not normal, and then I flick open the paper to see that swine flu was current at Garin College! Then what do I discover? It's Hannah's boyfriend who was confirmed with swine flu! Needless to say, it's not very challenging to source who I got it from and now here I am, two boring days of nothing (well, Playstation and TV) later, still feeling tired and depressed.

I have a 9 hour (or is it 8?) work day tomorrow which sucks it and I may have to call in sick, which I don't want to do for two reasons. One is that I've been taking days off left right and centre lately, mostly cause I have a heap of holiday hours stacked up, but I will feel bad for taking a sick day off inbetween two weekends of 'days off', which would be a little hopeless. The second reason is that in my year and a half of working life, I have never had a sick day, which is something I'm quite proud of. (Hear that future employers?) After work I have Oscar's 18th party which I can't miss because he's just about one of my only friends who actually came to my fucking 18th, which was shit, miserable and I barely want to think about. Yeah everyone had genuine reasons and such, but it didn't make it any better having a party with literally about 5 of my friends. Well I lie, because it was Amy and I's shared party, it was a lot of our mutual friends but 90% leaned towards her than me, and since there was only like 12 people there, that was a lot of leaning away from me.

Anyway, I will hopefully be alright tomorrow and if not I'll just show up for the dinner and skip town, which will suck, but there's no point going out raging in a club getting drunk as a skunk if I'm going to collapse and suffer another week for it. Even had to cancel plans for this evening which I was/am quite keen for, but need to be sensible and just... control myself. Besides I've been drinking for the last three weekends straight, and how many weekends have I been 18 for again? Oh yeah, three. So I need to calm down and stop being such a teenager, although I can barely help it. I can definitely see why alcoholism is so common in society, it's such a considerably-cheap for how it makes problems "melt away", although obviously they're just being made worse but if you're drunk, you don't care. Eventually you get too used to being drunk though and get to the point where you HAVE to pass out, and onwards until death. So it's not a good cycle, and it's not like it's remotely on my horizon as I have pretty good self-control, but it's not like it's something anyone can say will "never happen to them". Anyway, shutting up now.