Wasting time as usual.

So glad to have my mad homework rush out of the way, for the last few days I have not slept, showered, eaten (well, the last two are a lie thank God) but what I have done - I have done rushed, stressed and depressed. Mostly thanks to the massive rush of school work. Dad's been away for like 9 days in Australia and just got back today so it's good to have him back home safe and sound. (and without swine flu!)

Thank God, not so keen on 'quarantine' to say the most. Bex Wilk's birthday on Friday, what to get her I wonder. Will probably end up walking home from Richmond too, and then I'll have to work again on Saturday. I really am dying for the holidays, a few days off... IN A ROW? Who would have thought. I miss the Wellington trip, it was so effing good. I miss Hannah! And Sam! And James, and Ella and Chris and Caleb and Joe and Nick! It was such an awesome trip, FML it's over and the teacher's hate us for it ever since!

Gawd, well good memories are always ruined by a nasty present. Positive much? Whatever, dinner time soon.

Didn't do any exercise today, but ate healthy-ish and will do a some make-believe skipping rope, press ups and sit ups later on. Better then nothing at least, dinner soon though. Hope it's healthy, forgot what it was. Probably chocolate covered pork fat, I should be so lucky*. Asterick's are so last year, remind me to get over them.

Ta-ta! =P

P.S. Someone make this blog a better layout. It looks filthy right now!

Wait and See!

Well this blog has basically been abandoned, I admit, I am a fail blogger. I guess I just don't have as much to complain about these days, I mean, apart from looking disgusting and being actually overweight, I have little else to moan about.

The trash (friend-wise) has been desposed of long ago and things have since been great. I'm sort of over anger with certain friends, I'm sure they know who they are. It's just like... it was fun while it lasted, but definitely needed to be over and done with.

I'm in a good place right now, some very fucking weird twists of fate have left things... strangely positive. WHY AM I NOT COMPLAININ AND MISERABLE? Something wrong with me, especially with the amount of homework I have due tomorrow. FML. Ugh, I know I'm gonna mess everything up soon enough. Would be usual of me.

To-Do-List:

1. Do my homework
2. Loose 5kg (maybe 6kg)
3. Stop being lame.
4. Learn some social skills.
5. Stop speaking so camp.
6. Get my (learners) license.
7. Stop eating. (fatty foods, obvi)
8. Have good skin

Not in that order, infact it'll probably happen from top to bottom. More likely none of it will happen and I'll look back on this in like a month and think "Oh my God I did the opposite!"

Ugh, and god my Good mood has sunk just through writing this. FML. XD

Actual Blog for Once!

Well let's do a quick round-up of all the events over the last week (and a half) that I really haven't properly blogged. Well you get the gist of the Wellington trip anyway, and if not you can just like, ask someone else. Cause I'm over it.

Being back at school is such a nightmare, but there are definitely benefits to being back home. But I don't discuss, anything, on this blog. So get over it, you'll just have to talk to me in person! (Excluding Rianna, cause she's too nosey. Tehe!) Anyway Wellington was fucking amazing and I loved it, except when we got back it turns out the teachers that took us on the trip hated it and thought we were the worst behaved people ever and never want to take a school trip again. Here I was thinking it was fabulous, so much for that cause they were like bitching 24/7 (or so it seems) to the teachers. Hopefully they're over it now.

Anyway, well I was in a amazing mood last week. Loved it! But by the time work rolled around on Saturday (slowest day evveerr!) I was in the worst mood. But Brandon's look get-together afterwards was very great! I enjoyed hanging with his friends, must get over myself and hang with them more often. Anyway that night was interesting, was a bit worked up over something that turned out to be nothing. Trust me.

Sunday I chilled out, did some homework, played on the computer, ate, A LOT. And went for a walk/run. Was quite good to do that by myself, independance is a God given gift. That's for sure! (Look whose talking. Religious old me! Haha, no wonder I go to Garin. ;])

Anyway, today at school was ok, boring - but ok. Kind of a bit cold-sicky, I will look forward to NOT coughing up flem and shit all the time, it's fucking sick, to say the most.

Anyway, love you Rianna and Ashleigh! You guys are fucking hott. :D So is Natalie and whoever else reads this.

Done some History today!

Finally had time today to sit the fuck down, and do some of my long-needed History internal. And by 'some', I mean 'get started'. So I'll just start doing some every day until I catch up and not such a paranoid mess about it all. I'm off to the movies this evening, and getting dinner in town too which will be good. Well not really, cause my diet and exercise plans have failed and died and I look like Star Jones in like, 2003. Or whenever it was she was fat.

Anyway Friday was good, went to the variety concert and did my little skit thing for our Shakepeare performance. Then Nick Pittar's mum gave him and I a ride to Rianna's birthday at '623 on the Rocks', which had a nice set-up but the stuff seemed pretty unorganised and half the ordered things never arrived. And it was expensive as hell too, definitely won't be rushing back there I don't think. Saturday I worked all day, fairly fast day thank God and worked til 6pm again (an extra hour) so that extra pay will be nice. Straight after that Dad picked me up and took me to Shakespeare rehearsal until 8pm and then Miss Tomlin gave me a ride home! I slept in til like, 11am today (which was a dream!!) and dithered around eating too much for the rest of the day.

Anyway, I beleive Dad is ready to drive me into town. Byee!

'Work' (as if) Day

Well 'work day's basically over now, talk about work! Haha, 4 hours minimum work... That happened... not. There was a Teacher's Only Day at school today but it was changed into a 'Work Day' where we must work and then donate the proceeds to school to purchase something for the students. Umm, that's happened once in the three years I've been at school. So quite frankly, they can get fucked. I worked all day Saturday, and that was quite enough for my weekend so I'll take that 'work day' as a day off, TYVM. Today I went grocery shopping with Mum, cause I can always stock up on things I want. I hate dieting though, it's like 'YUM!' and then I remember I'm on a diet and can't have it. Oh well, I bought a new toothbrush and some moisturiser (which my dry flakey skin NEEDS!) which cheered me up a tad.

Anyway what else did I do? Well I didn't really get onto the massively annoying amount of study I seriously need to do. And I didn't study for my lisence either... hmm, I'm gonna be like a 40 year old driving virgin soon. Gawd, fuck me; need to get my lisence! Don't really need to drive anywhere though, guess I'd find somewhere to go if I could. Join the rest of the sad teen gas guzzlers, although I'm not life's biggest fan I'm quite eco-friendly - so pollution and shiz is really not cool. So... I'll give that a miss.

I went for a run today which I was quite proud of, but it was cold and tiring and I was aching, dying and spitting flem the whole way (as attractive as it sounds, ie. not very) so I was a bit over that. I was over it before I left actually, but whatever. Bodies don't become skinny themself, let alone toned. So when I got back I had never been more pleased to have soup for dinner! And my God it was good soup, I will be bringing some to school tomorrow in a flask.

God this blog is boring, lol! Talking about my soup tomorrow, I'm like an old woman. I quite like old woman, they often have good values and are also eco-friendly. They have good cooking skills and can make great feasts on little, and they're big on not-wasting too having survived through the depression and all that. Poor woman, and now we're heading into a new depression. Could the economy die at a worser time? If I go to uni or polytech or something (which i have to decide in a year if I will. Fuck!) I will need a student loan and be in debt and stuff, and if the world's money's dying I'll be screwed and so will everyone else. Gawd, guess I'll just have to work in retail forever... Joking. Never that desperate, well hopefully not. It's a pretty tiring job. Being the 'young guy' I think I'm supposed to be fit and energetic, I had to carry the most heavy mirror up and down the store the other day. Lord it was death!! The funny thing was there was this big burly guy I was carrying it for, and it's like "Hello?! I have fat not muscle!" God it was hell.

Anyway, that's me whinging. I'm quite frankly, over it. I revisted the online game Flyff today! God I miss it, everyone's so nice and sweet and all my stuff's worth fuckloads! So starting to play again! Loving it!

Days

Thank God for Sunday's and work days, normally I'd have school tomorrow but we have 'work day' tomorrow, and there is no way in hell I'm 'working', pretty sure I worked my life away yesterday? Well it wasn't that intense, but ya know, just staying polite with customers is all in a day's work... let alone all the rest of it. I'm sad I missed out on some cat fight outside with two women like pulling each-other's hair, screaming and yelling at each other which sounds quite eventful. God knows where I was.

Fuck I haven't really written much... Well nevermind, more shall be added on a later date.

$90 on my way

Yay, another day of work complete. $90 on my way, normally like $80 but I worked an extra hour so get $90. Thank God! Need to save it for the Wellington trip I'm going on in two weeks for the Shakespeare competition me and the group are off to. There's like 8 of us I think, thank God my parents are paying the main fees thank God. I'll just pay for my own needs aka. shopping. Should have close to $500 so I'll be all good.

Feeling quite sick right now, which sucks cause like, tomorrow's my only day off in the week. I guess it's better then having to do stuff, but seriously. Is it too much to ask for to feel ok for one day? Guess I'm just complaining, the heater in this room is way too hot right now. Need to turn it down, it's a gas heater. There's probably no oxygen in the room anymore and I'm about to die. Won't get my hopes up though.

Anyway, enjoy.

talkin' 2 myself

symphony;; it's gone quiet around us now.
how i wish you would hold me
& that you never told m
that it's better if you leave
look at the sun
we're starting to lose all of the light
that we once burnt so brightly
tell me we might be
not throwing it away...

Good evening one and all, enjoying yourselves? Obvi not if you're wandered onto this section of the internet. Well there's not much to disclose regarding the content of 13th May, 2009.

Lol, it's actually the 15th now. I stopped writing that blog and forgot about it, and here I am back picking it back up. So, well basically I've done nothing at school the last few days. And Wednesday I spent most of the day cruising around on a boat, well basically; the whole day. So easy to say... it was a good day.

I had a good week actually, dead fucking tired though. Going to bed NOW! Work tomorrow, save me! NEED money though, toodles! :D

Dearest Blog

Fuck, I forgot I posted this URL on my bebo. Lost my privacy! Sucky, I deleted all the juicy bits from my last blog just in case. haha. (wasn't that juicy anyway, trust me). Not a lot has happened since Sunday, Monday - boring. Just same-old classes, but today was a bit more eventful with my Drama internal! Fuck I did soooo bad, I was so worried about everyone else being so bad that I was like doing my (year long) lines without breathing, and I got completely breathless and started laughing when a bit of my costume fell off. Was I joking? I hope I passed though! Achieved or anything, so much work into this internal! It was a nightmare of bookwork too. Hates it. Well eitherway at least it's over and we might to a topic that I don't mind.

I have to work Thursday night! Gawd, and Saturday. And Sunday I have to go to school (!!) to rehearse the other Romeo and Juliet Shakespeare play I'm doing, where our group won the Regionals and we're off to Wellington to the Nationals! I PRAY we win, but IDK. We've done like, no practicising. Lol. But hopefully we will do it, not sure what happens if we do though. TV much? Lololol. Won't bet on it.

Anyway so... that's basically the agenda. Think I'll give tomorrow's plans a miss, and I think Brandon and some people were going to see umm... What movie was it?? Forgot, eitherway... Fuck! What the hell was it? Some movie that's coming out in like, a day. IDK, tomorrow I basically have nothing period 1-4 because with I.C.T. we're going out on some trip onto a Catamaran sailing boat. Everyone's gonna be taking photos so better put a lot of tan up to cover up my ugly face. A LOT to do that needed really, but you get the point. Tehe.

Still in a rutt.

Full weekend blog coming tomorrow, way too tired and that speech I have to do isn't gonna learn itself. Damn all the clocks going back an hour! Byee!

Yay! Weekend!

Yay, after a rather workful week of school it is finally the weekend and I would be celebrating but I had to take the day off of work tomorrow for a Shakespeare thing I'm involved in. Now it is exciting, but... for Fuck I have like, four lines. And to give up $80 and my entire Saturday to stand around pretending I'm doing something is not quite my idea of fun, and I'm pretty sure there's going to be a pizza dinner. God help me resist. My diet will die if pizza comes near me, the fruit toast and noodles I had for dinner was bad enough! Let alone the gingernuts. XD

ANYWAY, apart from my diet going really* well the weekend is looking bright (if I look past Saturday). Actually, I lie. I'm completely fucked for school. On MONDAY(!) I have to be prepared to give my English speech, and it's four minutes long! Let's just say, I haven't finished writing it... let alone, PRESENTING. Fuck knows when this speech is meant to be prepared by, it'd be just my luck to have to present first. Better hope my improv skills are sharp. GAWD!

Sunday's plans are to hang with Ashleigh, Natalie and Brandon. We will shop, get some lunch (if there's anything that doesn't scream "GET MOOBS!") and see Slumdog Millionaire. I need to shop cause all my clothes are DISGUSTING and if I don't I will continue my life looking like a completely fashion-less homeless wash-up (which is scarily not so far from the truth as I'd like). Save me, anyway; that day should be good, but let's just hope I remember to do my speech. FUCK I'm annoyed, it was bad enough having to secretly write an entire essay in 10 minutes because it was due that lesson and I forgot. Fuck I'm getting useless. Need to get like, motivated. God knows how.

It's official:
I'm in a rutt.

Roughing It

I've never felt so miserable! As in, physically (for once) that is. WELL the long story begins with an awfully boring and horrible week of school, at least Friday evening I saw 'Confessions of a Shopaholic' on Friday night with Rianna, Alice and Natalie; it was pretty good! But then... Saturday came, well the plan was after my hard day work Nick would come over, we would draw up like... our life plans and get to work in making all the positive changes to our lives we so desperately want! SO... instead, my parents were SUPPOSED to be going away for the night but since they didn't we decided to 'rough it' [aka. sleep on the streets], LOL! Really good idea. So instead of a hard day's dieting, I binged like I have never binged before. My body will never forgive me. XD

Anyway let's just say it wasn't the meaning of comfort, it was sooooooo cold and even stealing cardboard from a skip and buying newspapers to cover ourselves in didn't help. XD The moral of the story; we didn't sleep a wink for the entire night, and were wandering Nelson and Tahuna literally all night. JESUS it was the worst! So save to say, I'm tired as a slut. We came back home at like 7.30am and died at my house, slept til like 11am until we got up and walked Nick to town to catch the 12 o'clock bus to Richmond. Then I wandered home, and basically; here I am.

Anyway, I can barely type I feel like death and NEED to sleep.

Off to bed.

My Pussy Is Hanging Out!

Lol! Incase you have NO IDEA what the title of this post is about, watch the video at the bottom of the page and find out. Haha, God I love it. My day was fairly good (although long as a bitch and SO tiring!). What subjects did I have...? Oh yeah, I.C.T. (ok, lost my 2gb memory stick in there on Monday, FUCK!), History (had a reliever so we took notes, yawn!) then afterwards I had English (we played charades and talked gibberish, easy!) and then Media (we watched the Matrix. Loved it!!). Had a vinnies meeting at lunch, was pretty average. Some disgusting photos of me were taken but that's gonna be every photo taken of me in my life, so I better get used to it. Anyway then... Maths which the whole class was having a breakdown in (breakdown = being mental) and then a lovely* period of Drama to finish off the day. WAS NOT in the mood, but the teacher wasn't being too bad. Thank God.

Well full-day of work tomorrow, Mark afterwards and meeting up with Nick on Sunday. Woot! Bring on the weekend. :D Hope Dani's alright tonight too, she's found herself in a bit of a situation; hope she finds a resolution. Love you Dani!

Sick of School

This week has been the most boring and lezzest week EVER! Garin is from HELL! Need the weekend now! Wait, I don't have a weekend, I have work on Saturday. Thankfully I'm meeting up with Mark after work, and Nick on Sunday! So that's my weekend booked out, still have Friday night available. Any takers? Lol, can't be out very late cause need to be in bed nice and early for a 7.30am wake up call for being at work at 8:45am. Gawd! Yass I get paid tomorrow, I hope they pay for the extra hour I worked cause I have a suspicion they won't have as it was very informally decided.

Need to figure out how to do returns to! UGH! Just realised it's on Wednesday, thought it was Thursday. Fuck me!!!! But actually do. Lol! xD

Edit: Didn't get paid the extra hour, ugh. Will make a moan on Saturday, gawd! Oh well, still got paid at least. $80.05, woot!