Wasting time as usual.

So glad to have my mad homework rush out of the way, for the last few days I have not slept, showered, eaten (well, the last two are a lie thank God) but what I have done - I have done rushed, stressed and depressed. Mostly thanks to the massive rush of school work. Dad's been away for like 9 days in Australia and just got back today so it's good to have him back home safe and sound. (and without swine flu!)

Thank God, not so keen on 'quarantine' to say the most. Bex Wilk's birthday on Friday, what to get her I wonder. Will probably end up walking home from Richmond too, and then I'll have to work again on Saturday. I really am dying for the holidays, a few days off... IN A ROW? Who would have thought. I miss the Wellington trip, it was so effing good. I miss Hannah! And Sam! And James, and Ella and Chris and Caleb and Joe and Nick! It was such an awesome trip, FML it's over and the teacher's hate us for it ever since!

Gawd, well good memories are always ruined by a nasty present. Positive much? Whatever, dinner time soon.

Didn't do any exercise today, but ate healthy-ish and will do a some make-believe skipping rope, press ups and sit ups later on. Better then nothing at least, dinner soon though. Hope it's healthy, forgot what it was. Probably chocolate covered pork fat, I should be so lucky*. Asterick's are so last year, remind me to get over them.

Ta-ta! =P

P.S. Someone make this blog a better layout. It looks filthy right now!

Ignore the last post.

Well yesterday's streak of positivity sure was short lived, lol. Back to being miserable, weight obsessed and feeling like the fugliest thing in the world! ANd yes, I'm well aware feeling = being. Well after the absolute shittest day, school and all the rest of it - I'm about ready for a cyanide pill. Unforunately don't have too many of those in stock, so will just kill myself by homework-induced boredom. Stupid History assignment, I'm REALLY over it. So much to do still, sick of highlighting the effing book. So boring and annoying, and then I need to script scenes for my drama piece. One of my scenes is mainly just one character by him/herself so how I will make it 2 minutes long and take up an entire A4 page (without making the font massive) is a mystery. One infact, I can't be bothered solving.

God, one minute I'm complaining about the rain. Now I want it back, was good I could go for a run today though. Quite head-clearing, well not really, sinus clearing, but not so much head.

Well... off for dinner, well it's probably not ready. I'll just wait around for it, gonna make a salad for lunch tomorrow. Need to step up the diet, and drink more water. And I need to stop tanning my face cause my hair (around my forehead) is starting to turn a sick dark orange colour, not such a good look! I'm prety good at having 'not such a good look' these days anyhow, who cares.

Dad comes back tomorrow, thank God. Don't think I'll be too dependant on family support, but every once-and-a-while it'd be quite nice. Even if... nevermind. Bye all.

Wait and See!

Well this blog has basically been abandoned, I admit, I am a fail blogger. I guess I just don't have as much to complain about these days, I mean, apart from looking disgusting and being actually overweight, I have little else to moan about.

The trash (friend-wise) has been desposed of long ago and things have since been great. I'm sort of over anger with certain friends, I'm sure they know who they are. It's just like... it was fun while it lasted, but definitely needed to be over and done with.

I'm in a good place right now, some very fucking weird twists of fate have left things... strangely positive. WHY AM I NOT COMPLAININ AND MISERABLE? Something wrong with me, especially with the amount of homework I have due tomorrow. FML. Ugh, I know I'm gonna mess everything up soon enough. Would be usual of me.

To-Do-List:

1. Do my homework
2. Loose 5kg (maybe 6kg)
3. Stop being lame.
4. Learn some social skills.
5. Stop speaking so camp.
6. Get my (learners) license.
7. Stop eating. (fatty foods, obvi)
8. Have good skin

Not in that order, infact it'll probably happen from top to bottom. More likely none of it will happen and I'll look back on this in like a month and think "Oh my God I did the opposite!"

Ugh, and god my Good mood has sunk just through writing this. FML. XD

Actual Blog for Once!

Well let's do a quick round-up of all the events over the last week (and a half) that I really haven't properly blogged. Well you get the gist of the Wellington trip anyway, and if not you can just like, ask someone else. Cause I'm over it.

Being back at school is such a nightmare, but there are definitely benefits to being back home. But I don't discuss, anything, on this blog. So get over it, you'll just have to talk to me in person! (Excluding Rianna, cause she's too nosey. Tehe!) Anyway Wellington was fucking amazing and I loved it, except when we got back it turns out the teachers that took us on the trip hated it and thought we were the worst behaved people ever and never want to take a school trip again. Here I was thinking it was fabulous, so much for that cause they were like bitching 24/7 (or so it seems) to the teachers. Hopefully they're over it now.

Anyway, well I was in a amazing mood last week. Loved it! But by the time work rolled around on Saturday (slowest day evveerr!) I was in the worst mood. But Brandon's look get-together afterwards was very great! I enjoyed hanging with his friends, must get over myself and hang with them more often. Anyway that night was interesting, was a bit worked up over something that turned out to be nothing. Trust me.

Sunday I chilled out, did some homework, played on the computer, ate, A LOT. And went for a walk/run. Was quite good to do that by myself, independance is a God given gift. That's for sure! (Look whose talking. Religious old me! Haha, no wonder I go to Garin. ;])

Anyway, today at school was ok, boring - but ok. Kind of a bit cold-sicky, I will look forward to NOT coughing up flem and shit all the time, it's fucking sick, to say the most.

Anyway, love you Rianna and Ashleigh! You guys are fucking hott. :D So is Natalie and whoever else reads this.

GUILTY

Talk about a drag-of-a-day, at least 'Desperate Housewives' was good this evening. I'm so over school, I'm so behind in everything and worst of all... completely unmotivated! Pressure and peer-competition is not exactly driving me, talk about wasting my time. (aka. being at school)

Whatever, not a lot else today. There's not exactly any jobs going that'd be of any more use, as much as I love retail... I think I'll give it a miss in the long-run. Wish I had another preference as to what I would want to do forever would be helpful. Still, totally stuck. I know the outcome of things I actually would want to do, and they're pretty unhelpful.

Not sure what subjects I have tomorrow, but I know I need to stop being such a lazy shit and do some school work before I get totally and utterly behind and stuck where I can't help myself. God knows I can't already, whatever - things will be ok. Wellington trip this weekend, four nights away - might be good, might be bad. I'm worried about what I'll be made to eat, need to be on my best diet behaviour; since exercising won't be much of an option I bet. Should start packing actually, wonder what shoes I'll bring... Better bring three pairs, two leisure and my black leather shoes that I actually need in the performance.

Whatever, it's quite scary and stressful. Big audience to do our performance to! Ahh!

Done some History today!

Finally had time today to sit the fuck down, and do some of my long-needed History internal. And by 'some', I mean 'get started'. So I'll just start doing some every day until I catch up and not such a paranoid mess about it all. I'm off to the movies this evening, and getting dinner in town too which will be good. Well not really, cause my diet and exercise plans have failed and died and I look like Star Jones in like, 2003. Or whenever it was she was fat.

Anyway Friday was good, went to the variety concert and did my little skit thing for our Shakepeare performance. Then Nick Pittar's mum gave him and I a ride to Rianna's birthday at '623 on the Rocks', which had a nice set-up but the stuff seemed pretty unorganised and half the ordered things never arrived. And it was expensive as hell too, definitely won't be rushing back there I don't think. Saturday I worked all day, fairly fast day thank God and worked til 6pm again (an extra hour) so that extra pay will be nice. Straight after that Dad picked me up and took me to Shakespeare rehearsal until 8pm and then Miss Tomlin gave me a ride home! I slept in til like, 11am today (which was a dream!!) and dithered around eating too much for the rest of the day.

Anyway, I beleive Dad is ready to drive me into town. Byee!

'Work' (as if) Day

Well 'work day's basically over now, talk about work! Haha, 4 hours minimum work... That happened... not. There was a Teacher's Only Day at school today but it was changed into a 'Work Day' where we must work and then donate the proceeds to school to purchase something for the students. Umm, that's happened once in the three years I've been at school. So quite frankly, they can get fucked. I worked all day Saturday, and that was quite enough for my weekend so I'll take that 'work day' as a day off, TYVM. Today I went grocery shopping with Mum, cause I can always stock up on things I want. I hate dieting though, it's like 'YUM!' and then I remember I'm on a diet and can't have it. Oh well, I bought a new toothbrush and some moisturiser (which my dry flakey skin NEEDS!) which cheered me up a tad.

Anyway what else did I do? Well I didn't really get onto the massively annoying amount of study I seriously need to do. And I didn't study for my lisence either... hmm, I'm gonna be like a 40 year old driving virgin soon. Gawd, fuck me; need to get my lisence! Don't really need to drive anywhere though, guess I'd find somewhere to go if I could. Join the rest of the sad teen gas guzzlers, although I'm not life's biggest fan I'm quite eco-friendly - so pollution and shiz is really not cool. So... I'll give that a miss.

I went for a run today which I was quite proud of, but it was cold and tiring and I was aching, dying and spitting flem the whole way (as attractive as it sounds, ie. not very) so I was a bit over that. I was over it before I left actually, but whatever. Bodies don't become skinny themself, let alone toned. So when I got back I had never been more pleased to have soup for dinner! And my God it was good soup, I will be bringing some to school tomorrow in a flask.

God this blog is boring, lol! Talking about my soup tomorrow, I'm like an old woman. I quite like old woman, they often have good values and are also eco-friendly. They have good cooking skills and can make great feasts on little, and they're big on not-wasting too having survived through the depression and all that. Poor woman, and now we're heading into a new depression. Could the economy die at a worser time? If I go to uni or polytech or something (which i have to decide in a year if I will. Fuck!) I will need a student loan and be in debt and stuff, and if the world's money's dying I'll be screwed and so will everyone else. Gawd, guess I'll just have to work in retail forever... Joking. Never that desperate, well hopefully not. It's a pretty tiring job. Being the 'young guy' I think I'm supposed to be fit and energetic, I had to carry the most heavy mirror up and down the store the other day. Lord it was death!! The funny thing was there was this big burly guy I was carrying it for, and it's like "Hello?! I have fat not muscle!" God it was hell.

Anyway, that's me whinging. I'm quite frankly, over it. I revisted the online game Flyff today! God I miss it, everyone's so nice and sweet and all my stuff's worth fuckloads! So starting to play again! Loving it!

Fun Day!

I had another good day today (if I exclude the thought of dieting) with friends in town.

Well I had planned to get up at 8.50am and run up to the radio tower before I met up with Ashleigh, Natalie and Brandon in the morning but things happened a little differently. Lol!

Well first thing was that I turned off my alarm... and then went back to sleep, and then at like 9.30am... I hear tapping at my window. I was like, "Is my life joking?" at first; but then it happened like three times so I looked out the window (having JUST sat up from bed, in my pyjamas; my skin and hair must have looked like suicide!) and there's Nick standing there. Could have died! xD Anyway I dressed as quick as a slut, and went to see him (my dog was having an actual breakdown of barking at him, God she was loud). Anyway he came in and he chatted and it just turned out he was getting a laptop at 10.30am with his Dad and could only get a ride into town at like 9am, so decided to come to mine. God I must have looked disgusting! Then again I always do, anyway he borrowed my straightener and then took off.

I got ready then for my meeting with B, N and A at 11am (sick of writing their names) so showered, dressed etc. but then I realized Mum owed me money so at the last minute (it really was the last minute) she drove me to town and we made a quick pit-stop at the Westpac ATM, and she gave me $100 for shopping (which I deserved believe me!). Also met up with Nick again and he came along for the day which was cool, so met up with the 'crew'. I bought a jacket and two shirts, was going to buy some pants but that didn't happen. Felt like I'd overspent like a bitch already, but whatever. Oh then work rang and since I was in town, I just went to see why and it turns out they want me to work Thursday and Friday 5-9pm (as WELL as full day Saturday) so I'm like, a work-a-holic now. I wouldn't accept BOTH nights but it's holidays and all so why not. Get paid time and a half on Saturday (Anzac day) which will be a dream! Good money for shopping whenever I go to Wellington, my parents better pay for the flights or I'll scream! But they will. ;-)

What have I missed...? Oh, well shitloads (well not really); went to see Fast and the Furious 4 which was overdone with special effects, but aren't all action movies? Most of the time there was just too much happening to even watch, would have been hell to film! It really would have, like a hundred cuts per minute in the race scenes. Psycho! But it was a good movie, I don't regret seeing it. Just was hard to watch, anyway; apart from eating like there's no today (aka. Chinese, ice-cream, mentos, flavoured milk, orange juice and dinner ie. a stew [which at least I covered in Cayenne Pepper - meant to boost your metabolism!] and carby pumpkin), I had a lovely day. After Nat and Ash left Brandon, Nick and I ventured to the Warehouse and I bought 'Keeping up with the Kardashians' Season 1, love it! Will watch later though, anyway tomorrow I'm gonna go to Brandon's house and I think Juni will be there which will be cool since I have't seen him since the Summer holidays!

Anyway after the Warehouse, Brandon went home so Nick and I went to see Nick's friends who were all around the park thing by Woolworths, and LORD it was cold and windy in town by then. Anyway we wondered around and Nick bought shoes, and then I eventually wandered off as to avoid having to walk in the cold in the dark, and well... basically, here I am! And there's my full day's account.

Why did I write this out? So I could look back in like a million years (probably how long I'll live, Gawd...) and see what my life was like back in the day. Anyway... whatever, have a good one!

Peace. =]

Catch Up

God, Saturday already! Well, Saturday nearly over I guess, so Sunday really. I can't believe how fast the holiday's are going! Jesus! I'll be back at school in no time and everyone will be really depressed and boring, and I'll be grumpy and sullen and have fights with all my friends and vowel to never get over it (even though I normally do straight away) and drag it on til it's not even worth it, at which point I'll decide to make up with my friend. Talk about my life.

So today I ate too much, and slept too little last night. So simply to say, I look and feel like death!

Now, what did I do since Wednesday... Hmm, what did I do?? Oh! Thursday I went for a walk up to the radio tower, Oscar and his dog umm... Forgot it's name, bugger. It was cute anyway, ANYWAY; saw Katie-May down the road and walked back home with her after that.

Friday? God, that was only yesterday. I literally have no idea what I did! Must have done nothing, but I sware I did... Oh! Went to Helena's! That's right, made muffins (which look GOD awful; but taste delish!) They're fatty as a whore though, so I must never eat them (already had 3. Save me) (From myself). We walked to Tahuna beach (which I was amazed she could do, let alone me!).

It's ridiculas how much exercise I do really and still my body continues to look fat and bloaty, my skin is dying and my hair is a huge wreck. Nothing can save me, it seems. Need a diet upgrade, might kiss carbs bye-bye once and for all. Do Weet-bix count? And dairy, and sugar. Well, need a little sugar; but a little it will be. Actually there should be plenty in fruit, so I'll just eff up.

Have a good one people, enjoy your night!

Lol, I got asked by everyone at work and my parent's friends if I was 'doing anything tonight'. Do I look like someone who has 'something to do'? I'm disgusting and I have no friends, sooooo much to do. -_- Kill me.

P.S. Literally do.

P.S.S. Work was hell today.

One more day down. A billion (of life) to go.

Well that's Wednesday over and done with thankfully, another Richmond to Nelson walk with Nick complete. Pretty much binge free also, some close calls at McDonalds and the petrol station but overall we did pretty well.

Not a lot to report really, we just chatted, sang (well, without knowing the words to like, every song) and, well, walked. Except for when we tried to run up Day's Track. Had to have a 15 minute breather after that, was dying! Not exactly in ideal running pants or shoes either. Anyway, over writing this blog right now.

Nothing much planned for tomorrow, except for a walk up the Grampians. Friday's plans have been moved to Monday (refer to previous post) so instead will go see Helena; who I have been meaning to for effing FOREVER. I'm looking forward to it, sort of mentioned to Dani we should catch up Friday but guess we'll do Sunday hopefully.

Freedom! Forever!

Well free forever, but two weeks is forever as opposed to NO day's off; aka, a normal school week. I'm broke as a joke! Didn't work last week, will work tomorrow but won't get paid until Thursday. Oh well, will probably be working til 6 too; saw the Easter sale ad and said it was til 6, unlike the usual 5. Well that's like, $10 more. Woot! (And no one ever gets it when I say $10, I get paid $12 a week but after tax it's only really like $10)

Anyway, had a quiet day; "a day of rest" as I like to call it. Not that anything too stressful has been happening, but school sure takes it out of you. Well, me anyway. I was watching 'Freaky Friday' but the quality was real bad for some reason and I've seen it like twice before so I think I'll give it a miss.

Today I was supposed to be taken to like, Hope or something to visit my parents friends for lunch but that didn't happen; so instead went for a massive walk to like Stoke, visited my Nana's grave in Marsden Cemetary which was sad; but haven't been there on my own before and was nice to 'pay my respects', as they call it. Not that it was that respectful, it's wierd but it is just nice to stand by the grave like; reflect. Whatever, it's lame to talk about; but it was nice. Afterwards I went into Stoke hoping to buy some water, but the damn shops were all closed cause of Good Friday today so that didn't happen. Walked around to Tahuna and a dairy was open there so finally got my water, was dying of thirst like the minute I left.

I cooked myself noodles and stir-fry veges for dinner, but then binged with toast, cereal and gingernuts. Not the healthiest but I'm sure my like, 3 hour walk will make up for it. Not that walking on the flat really does a hell of a lot, but better then sitting regardless.

TTYVVS!

What's The Haps

So what's been happening, haven't really been in the mood to blog for a wee while, and still am not; but since I am the nicest blogger you ever met I'll write my life away (hopefully literally) regardless. Actually, fuck this; I'm going for a walk. Will come back and write this after. TTYL!

Kay, back now. So let's finish this, well... get it started anyway. SO, when I got home Friday night my parents had already taken off to the always delightful Marahau and stayed at our bach, which is newly renovated so actually quite nice these days. Anyway, I thought I'd give it a miss regardless. So not a lot happened Friday night, dragged myself for a walk up to the radio tower which I thought was pretty committed since I could easily have stayed at home and binged.

Saturday I planned to get up early as a bitch and tan (literally like, in the sun) before I went to the Shakepeare thing but by the time I got up it was 9.50am which meant I only had like an hour and a half til I had to leave the house, so after frantic preparation I dashed to town and caught the 12noon bus which took me to Richmond. Since I would have been like 15 minutes early if I went to straight to Garin to meet everyone, I went to Dani's for a bit and saw her and blowdryed her hair. Love her! Her household was really busy and everyone was cleaning and things, good people! I should be doing the same at my house, when my parents are around I get so lazy. I need to stop wasting my life achieving nothing on the internet and do something, seriously. God, keep getting side-tracked. Fuck I've felt busy and annoyed later, I really am in a rutt. But talking to some friends at school, they say they're all feeling the same so I feel a little better. Seems everyone is a bit worn out and sick of school, NEED the holidays! I better not binge either, ANYWAY; fuck.

Got to Garin at like 1pm (which felt early as a bitch), and there was like Isaac (is that his name?), James, Ella, Tim, Renee, Nick P and whoever else. Caleb Nott, and those two other music guys who kept singing songs A LOT. Whatever, needless to say; I didn't exactly fit in. So after packing costumes we took off in the van, sat by Isaac who didn't say a word to me. So that put me in a bad mood first off, then once we got there and met up with Hannah (and Nic) and Sam, we stood around for a YEAR before someone told us where to go. So we got taken around like the biggest hallways, and then we dumped our stuff and did some rehearsals (when I say some, I mean: A LOT). Anyway, I had like, 4 lines so didn't exactly need to rehearse much but did anyway. Rehearsed mostly for Sam and Isaac's sake (is that his name or is it Chris, I have no effing clue. Lol!) as Sam kept forgetting his lines, but at least he had some... *insert bitchy comments about everything here* Anyway, I don't know why; I should have been grateful to be involved and I'm sure no one meant to, but I felt totally left out the whole day and after missing a day of work (aka. $80) to stand around all day and then eat effing KFC (God I'll be moaning about that for weeks) I was basically having a meltdown. (By 'basically', I mean: I was.) Anyway, ugh, fuck knows who'll read and hate me for this; But I did have the worst day.

By the time we got to perform (like 7pm) I became a bit more excited, wasn't really nervous cause like... How could I forget my lines? I'll recite them for you. "Do you bite your thumb at us, Sir?" (I say that twice), "Quarrel sir? No sir!", "No Better", and "You lie". So whatever, everyone did really well and then... We won! So we're off to Wellington, it's exciting but like... it's also not for me, like I do get it for everyone else; and James got the best Actor and Renee got the best director award but like... I was just over it by then, and I was tired and cranky and self-loathing cause Sam and I also (kill me!) went to McD's and got a plus size (aka. what I am) choc sunday, FUCK I regretted that; but it was to die for. Anyway, then by like 10.30pm we got going back home, this trip was even better* though. I sat in the back (three seats, by myself) and everyone else was sitting together having a grand old time. So I was left to text in the backrow and was completely ignored, sounds like fun huh? Whatever, I'm sure (well not SURE, but no one was caring) no one meant to abandon me, but I wasn't impressed. Anyway we got back to school and everyone was like "OMG WE WON!!" and all I could think was "Like, four days in Wellington with this..." didn't quite have me jumping for joy. Anyway, I'm a big negative sap on everyone but I was really in the worst mood by now and quite ready to go home, so Miss Tomlin drove Renee and I home and that was good. Arriving to an empty house, after a depressing day (even though we won, which I know was great; but like, didn't actually win anything) was a bit of a wrist slit. Actually I think I know why I didn't enjoy it that much, it's because, really, I had the smallest part in the whole thing out of everyone.

And like, I didn't even get a chance to get a prize cause my part was so small; I guess I was a fill-in, in the first place. Just a change since last year for our Drama class play I was forced into being the main character, and it was a really horrible character (a Sergeant Major) and I had a billion lines, so a little more of a challenge would have been nice. I got Excellence for that role too, the only Excellence credits I got in my ENTIRE NCEA Level 1. LOL! Anyway, whatever; that's enough whinging from me. I guess it was a good day but... I just wasn't in the mood.

Sunday was a much more improved day though, and thank God for it or I would have cried! Brandon turned up at 8am, cause his parents were taking off to like, Murchison for the day and that was his only chance to get a ride. Anyway, I admit I only woke up once I heard his car pull into the drive, and I was like fuck fuck fuck and rushed out of bed and quickly dressed. Anyway, thank God he wasn't fussy cause I went though my morning routine with him there and he waited patiently and nicely. Anyway, we played old PS1 games on my very flash PS2, lol (I forgot how much I love Pandemonium!) We dithered off to town at like, 11.15pm planning to meet Ashleigh and Natalie at 12, however we were obviously both early and we ran into them at like quarter to 12 so then we wandered around and first thing we did was go to the handbag and wallet shop. It made me really want a new wallet, but Brandon was like "I just gave you a wallet!" and he did, and it's cool; but I couldn't help it. Anyway we got onto some serious shopping which I really needed cause all my clothes SUCK! Tried on fuckloads of pants at JayJays and I looked sick in all of them, but bought some black ones for $50 anyway cause I need new pants. And I got two shirts, and also a hoodie/top from Just Jeans, they were all like "It's too small for you!" but it's just an inpsiration to diet and keep my exercise regime on track.

OMG we bought the most sinful things EVER food-wise, first Brandon had a spare $10 voucher for 'Cocoa', the Fudge and Chocolate shop and I bought $10 worth of Fudge! And we all had some (except for ano Brandon) and I've still for 3 bits sitting in the pantry, Lord help me resist! We also had Chokdee for Lunch, which is THE cutest little Thai restuarant and I got my little card stamped 4 times so I'm like, two or three away from getting a free lunch. It's a good meal considering it's only like $9, love Chokdee! EVERYONE go there (and get Phad Tai, TO DIE FOR!). I also had a Vanilla Cream (kill me!) drink from Starbucks, so it's safe to put a big 'DIET FAILURE' stamp covering my entire weekend's life. Anyway I'll just skip a lot of the BS we did, even though that's mostly it. We saw Slumdog Millionaire which I've been meaning to see for a while, it was a good movie like everyone says! Not as good as everyone says, but very good regardless! Ash, Nat, Brandy and I made a good town group, and Brandon bought me/us M&M's to share, and I admit I ate most of them. Gawd! They were good though.

After that Brandon got picked up, Natalie's sister drove me and Ashleigh home also and that was cool; basically went to bed pretty early yesterday. Anyway, school today was sooo boring and had to have photos taken with the Shakespeare at Morning tea (missed my Sharon duty luncheon, what a shame) and then more Shakespeare stuff at Lunch; discussing the big Wellington trip and some fundraising ideas. All I know is that I'm seeing my brother and his girlfriend Robyn when I go up - wether I'm allowed to or not. Anyway, I'm getting a headache from writing this. You better have read and enjoyed it cause this has taken forever and Brandon has been patiently waiting on MSN the whole time. Stay hott everyone!

Worst Day

God I had the worst day. Could I have any less friends? No is the answer. Why is dieting so horrible? I mean, I had three weetbix for breakfast and an apple, nectarine and a salad for lunch/morning tea so was good most of the day.

UNTIL I got farking home and binged on ham, cheese and tomato BS Mum made me. AND a little 250ml thing of Chocolate milk, two crackers, a gingernut ANNDD... a glass of soy milk! The whole day is ruined, I may as well had McDonalds for breakfast, K.F.C. for lunch, Wendy's for an after school snack and Burker King for dinner. Sick of being fat, and being harrassed for being 'skinny' today was not helping.

For the love of Fuck, just because I've lost some (and none recently) weight doesn't mean I'm a fucking CRAZED starvation-happy anorexic. But if I see another carb... I will have a break down.
Lezzest problems right now, sooo not discussing them here.

Didn't get into fucking Stage Challenge, I auditioned and was looking forward to it but didn't get in. So fucking stupid, hate everyone involved! Except for Katie-May, cause she's nice. And not really in charge. Whatever, guess I wasn't exactly amazing at the auditions, still... -_-

Going for a run/walk tonight. Refuse to be lazy. Would go for another one now but... actually why don't I? I just know I won't go later on.