Ignore the last post.

Well yesterday's streak of positivity sure was short lived, lol. Back to being miserable, weight obsessed and feeling like the fugliest thing in the world! ANd yes, I'm well aware feeling = being. Well after the absolute shittest day, school and all the rest of it - I'm about ready for a cyanide pill. Unforunately don't have too many of those in stock, so will just kill myself by homework-induced boredom. Stupid History assignment, I'm REALLY over it. So much to do still, sick of highlighting the effing book. So boring and annoying, and then I need to script scenes for my drama piece. One of my scenes is mainly just one character by him/herself so how I will make it 2 minutes long and take up an entire A4 page (without making the font massive) is a mystery. One infact, I can't be bothered solving.

God, one minute I'm complaining about the rain. Now I want it back, was good I could go for a run today though. Quite head-clearing, well not really, sinus clearing, but not so much head.

Well... off for dinner, well it's probably not ready. I'll just wait around for it, gonna make a salad for lunch tomorrow. Need to step up the diet, and drink more water. And I need to stop tanning my face cause my hair (around my forehead) is starting to turn a sick dark orange colour, not such a good look! I'm prety good at having 'not such a good look' these days anyhow, who cares.

Dad comes back tomorrow, thank God. Don't think I'll be too dependant on family support, but every once-and-a-while it'd be quite nice. Even if... nevermind. Bye all.

The City of O-bee

Well I haven't blogged since Friday, gosh! Well I just didn't really get around to it but you'll have to build a bridge, and jump off of it. :-) Wait, was it just get over it? IDK, suicidal option is always better. Haha I have so much goss and so little tell.

WELL, Saturday I had work which was a good easy day and just worked my time and I bought a $40 straightener! It's hott, but sadly I don't reckon my hair looks terribly good with it but regardless; I will continue to use it! Then after work I was rushed off to Marahau (Abel Tasman) and got to see all of the changes my aunty had made to the place. The bathroom is a million times better and everything is just a lot nicer, she did very well! Horrible pillows though, I had a shocking sleep and I was cold as fuck!! Had like one miserable blanket, could have died! Shame I didn't actually, hmm...

Sunday I awoke at what I thought was reaally late but it only ended up to be 9.30am which means I must have been woken up and ever since tossing-and-turning since like 6am! Talk about early! Anyway after much time-wasting getting ready (as even after my bathroom time, I still emerged looking disgusting). I really am getting depressed about being fat and ugly still, might begin seriously looking at surgery options and begging my parents to pay. I literally need it.

School today was hellish, talk about accusations today! Felt like I was on trial "Are you anorexic?" "Are you wearing make-up?" "Are you going out with Nick?" Umm... yyyyeeeeEEEEEEeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeesssssss (aka. no) to the millions* of people reading.

Sitting in the corner of the school crying tomorrow lunch. I really wanted to wag some classes but I knew I'd get a pro-social (whatever that even means, well I know what it means aka. staying 2 hours after school, but the actual term 'pro-social' makes no sense. Whatevz.) so obvi I didn't.

Fuck I binged on cereal before! THREE weet-bix and then nutri-grain as well! With soy milk too, omg save me! Dare I mention the crackers with cheese and dip on them.

All of the above in normal English means, "I am going for an hour and a half uphill/downhill jog this evening." :-) This evening by the way, is in an hour and a half.

Edit: Bugger, I should have left for my run like half an hour ago, ugh will just have to do the normal Grampian walk. Toodles.

P.S. Oscar's a bitch.

Formal Blogging

To Whomever It May Concern,

Thank you for attending and reading the 161st installment of my blog titled 'Being Joey'. The 17th of March has been a day of particular misfortune, beginning with the second sleepless night in the past two days. Unfortunately by the time morning had reached the sky above my window, I had become quite uncomfortable and moved out of bed feeling tired and unhappy. I contemplated this and realized that a day arriving with instant exhaustion was one that would surely be a painful grinding sort.

Once departing my household the morning was chilling, I was grateful to have worn long pants and a long sleeved shirt with the added warmth of a jacket. Unfortunately as the day progressed (as depressing and boring as it was) onwards and eventually formed into an extremely hot day with direct sunshine and few clouds.

The medical disability I suffer with where excess body fat has accumulated to an extent that health may be negatively affected (otherwise referred to as obesity) is a factor in my lifestyle that needs to be reconsidered and the treatment of it shall be revised. A strict exercise and skincare regime including a detox and daily facial repair treatments may indeed be embarked upon.

The other neglected part of my life as of late has been my social life which during the coarse of my school day has pretty much fallen apart. I must set my sights higher on completing set meetings with friends to continue and improve friendships.

As for the rest of me, we shall all see - in good time.

Yours Sincerely,
Joey Sauer.

*sings* 9-5, what a way to make a living...

Well, 9-6 in my case. I worked an extra hour, it's so exhausting! I guess you are standing and walking around for basically the whole time so it's no surprise it's so tiring afterwards. I somehow managed to spend $30 yesterday, don't really remember buying much. So lame. Must budget, ASAP! Anyway nothing new to report except that work's sales are tiring! And... I got to sleep in. God it was great, back to lame school tomorrow though. And my fucking ugly uniform which is a thousand sizes to big, I mean seriously. I know I'm overweight and all, but does my uniform need to make me look even worse? I think not.

Oh My GOD I hate the uniform so much! Save me!!

I will be ringing my BFF Helena later on as I plan to go see her, haven't seen her for agggeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeees so need to ASAP!

A Normal Post

Well here's a normal post, guess I ain't done a proper one of these for a while. It's funny when people tell me they were looking at this cause this is just like, what I do in my spare time cause I have no life and when I should be (but aren't) exercising. This is just my version of killing time, which is an awful thing to say, especially when I could be ending the world's obestity crisis! Which is very hyprocritcal when you look at the state of me! Joking with my skin? Anyway, so while some read, some listen to music, or draw, paint, play sports or whatever BS... I blog! Anyway it'll be funny to look back on as this is just really a diary, but I'm too attention-seeking to do it in privacy so hence; the whole world can read if they want.

Anyway today was a rather long day, Double Drama first thing in the morning which was a bit frantic and we had to write summary's and reflections which would determine the score of our performances. I honestly couldn't be farked with it, and we were being rushed so much and had to watch my (shockingly) bad improv performance, and I looked/felt/was sick which didn't exactly grab my attention and make me want to watch let alone, write about. Anyway once that was all over I had morning tea and I scoffed a can of tuna and some crackers (so much for dieting -_-) and ordered a damn chicken wrap! Even though it is mostly salad, still saturated in sauces and covered in a like, pita bread wrap thing. Joking with the gluten and wheat? I wish!

After break I had double Maths, which as you can imagine was a dream* but I did nothing in that class as Mrs (or is it Miss?) Ditchfield went on a bit giving us instruction on what we did wrong on the essay. Ugh, F**K! I failed the test so have to do another one tomorrow, f**k f**k f**k my life! Ugh, why am I so ugly? Anyway after my bingeful lunchtime (*shudder*) Miss Tomlin and Renee wanted me to come have this tiny part in this Shakespere performance. It's the tiniest part ever! But whatever, I get to act staunch and above it all, which really is just an exaggeration of reality. ;D Just joking (ish). Anyway then double History and we had a reliever so I was like UGGHHHH, but he turned out to be effing brill! I did actually 0% work, but I will do it for homestudy (aka: tomorrow's form/whanau class. Lol!) so Miss Middleton doesn't hate him, NEED to have that guy again! He was the best. Anyway then the bliss of escape from Hellrin was fully realized and after my successful completion of another day was complete (only a million more to go) I went on the bus home, and chatted to Katie and Elle about Stage Challenge which is now happening. I'll do it this year, so for people who want to see me dance it'll be a tad ROFL worthy. Whatevz, I have swift dancing skills (well I can roll my belly? Err, my belly has rolls? Lololol. xD). What the fuck am I on about? Ignore me, it's the food talking. (hence, why I've been talking for so long!)

Sick of typing, but not really. Toodles!

Edit: Look at this cute E-mail sent to me by the Vinnies co-ordinator Phillipa, she puts so much effort in, so sweet!