I have a problem!

I HAVE A PROBLEM! And the problem is... I feel obligated to write this blog! Why? XD I mean, why am I even writing this? What the hell causes me to write this? I literally don't know! I just feel like one day this blog will be useful somehow, not entirely sure how. I tend not to write anything too personal incase there's nosey people around digging for dirt, but only a sparkling clean reputation will you find here! Well... that's debatable.

Well I said I will explain Mahi Toi, and very briefly I shall; it is a 2 day Arts Festival at Garin College (aka. my school) and we have no classes and everyone performs/watches things. It's pretty cool, I did nothing yesterday but today I performed two drama pieces (one is my scene with Sam and Isaac from the Wellington Shakespeare thing. Miss that trip! LOVE everyone on that trip!!) The other scene I did was this one for Drama class and it was so lame, I had no idea what the lines were. By the time I got up on-stage I completely forget them all and made it totally impromptu. Nerve-racking!

The best thing of the whole day is that this costume Alex and Sarah (well, just Alex. Lol!) made that I had to model got into the finals! So I have to show it off on the big night when there's lots of people, since half my legs and all arms will be on display I will be needing a lot of tan! Just joking, but probably not really. Tanning is such a nightmare, takes eternity to dry and leaves you standing there sticky as. Which reminds me of the costume I wore, it was made out of hay bailing material shiz; the plastic used to cover hay. So sticky and stiff, was totally gross! And I also had my white school shirt on and P.E. shorts on underneath. I wore a gas mask and this little hat that Rianna said I looked 'Muslim' in. Loved it. But yeah, it was a pretty like, 5-minute-job costume and others were way better that didn't get in the final so I admit, I feel really bad!

Whatever though, it was a good day... but back to school tomorrow and how better to start with then double drama! Joy. xD

Cross Country Today!!

I can officially not blog cause I am tired and bored and have nothing much to say except for I HATE CROSS COUNTRY! Lol, today was hell... I ran three laps which is like 6km and I died; but bet some fit people so I was pretty pumped. (Who says that? XD!) How'd YOU feel getting beaten by the fat kid? Not that I really beat anyone really, just the people that couldn't be bothered trying... still! Whatever, that farking stream we have to jump across is like a giant leap and I cut my knee on some thorny bullshit on the other side. Whatever, it was pretty sexual really. Was having a minor fake tan disaster on my legs but no one seemed to notice, thank God!

Variety Concert and Rianna's birthday dinner tomorrow, fuck and I haven't got her a present! Fuck fuck fuck! She'll just uhh... have to have it 'delayed' cause I'm unprepared and useless! And fuck everything's an annoying nightmare with tomorrow, stuck at Garin, no ride, no way of getting to the party or actually arriving at the time if I'm stuck at the concert. Need to go to both! I have a plan... but it might fail. xD We shall see...

P.S. My life is a diet failure. Chocolate cake and cream = anorexia much? I think not.

Dearest Blog

Fuck, I forgot I posted this URL on my bebo. Lost my privacy! Sucky, I deleted all the juicy bits from my last blog just in case. haha. (wasn't that juicy anyway, trust me). Not a lot has happened since Sunday, Monday - boring. Just same-old classes, but today was a bit more eventful with my Drama internal! Fuck I did soooo bad, I was so worried about everyone else being so bad that I was like doing my (year long) lines without breathing, and I got completely breathless and started laughing when a bit of my costume fell off. Was I joking? I hope I passed though! Achieved or anything, so much work into this internal! It was a nightmare of bookwork too. Hates it. Well eitherway at least it's over and we might to a topic that I don't mind.

I have to work Thursday night! Gawd, and Saturday. And Sunday I have to go to school (!!) to rehearse the other Romeo and Juliet Shakespeare play I'm doing, where our group won the Regionals and we're off to Wellington to the Nationals! I PRAY we win, but IDK. We've done like, no practicising. Lol. But hopefully we will do it, not sure what happens if we do though. TV much? Lololol. Won't bet on it.

Anyway so... that's basically the agenda. Think I'll give tomorrow's plans a miss, and I think Brandon and some people were going to see umm... What movie was it?? Forgot, eitherway... Fuck! What the hell was it? Some movie that's coming out in like, a day. IDK, tomorrow I basically have nothing period 1-4 because with I.C.T. we're going out on some trip onto a Catamaran sailing boat. Everyone's gonna be taking photos so better put a lot of tan up to cover up my ugly face. A LOT to do that needed really, but you get the point. Tehe.

The City of O-bee

Well I haven't blogged since Friday, gosh! Well I just didn't really get around to it but you'll have to build a bridge, and jump off of it. :-) Wait, was it just get over it? IDK, suicidal option is always better. Haha I have so much goss and so little tell.

WELL, Saturday I had work which was a good easy day and just worked my time and I bought a $40 straightener! It's hott, but sadly I don't reckon my hair looks terribly good with it but regardless; I will continue to use it! Then after work I was rushed off to Marahau (Abel Tasman) and got to see all of the changes my aunty had made to the place. The bathroom is a million times better and everything is just a lot nicer, she did very well! Horrible pillows though, I had a shocking sleep and I was cold as fuck!! Had like one miserable blanket, could have died! Shame I didn't actually, hmm...

Sunday I awoke at what I thought was reaally late but it only ended up to be 9.30am which means I must have been woken up and ever since tossing-and-turning since like 6am! Talk about early! Anyway after much time-wasting getting ready (as even after my bathroom time, I still emerged looking disgusting). I really am getting depressed about being fat and ugly still, might begin seriously looking at surgery options and begging my parents to pay. I literally need it.

School today was hellish, talk about accusations today! Felt like I was on trial "Are you anorexic?" "Are you wearing make-up?" "Are you going out with Nick?" Umm... yyyyeeeeEEEEEEeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeesssssss (aka. no) to the millions* of people reading.

Sitting in the corner of the school crying tomorrow lunch. I really wanted to wag some classes but I knew I'd get a pro-social (whatever that even means, well I know what it means aka. staying 2 hours after school, but the actual term 'pro-social' makes no sense. Whatevz.) so obvi I didn't.

Fuck I binged on cereal before! THREE weet-bix and then nutri-grain as well! With soy milk too, omg save me! Dare I mention the crackers with cheese and dip on them.

All of the above in normal English means, "I am going for an hour and a half uphill/downhill jog this evening." :-) This evening by the way, is in an hour and a half.

Edit: Bugger, I should have left for my run like half an hour ago, ugh will just have to do the normal Grampian walk. Toodles.

P.S. Oscar's a bitch.