Hatoyama's Hard Road for 2010

Thoughts from my recent trip to Japan (as well as China and Singapore) last month, re-posted from Huffington Post:

Just about four months in office, Japanese Prime Minister Yukio Hatoyama has paved an unnecessarily difficult path for himself and his Democratic Party of Japan (DPJ) for 2010 as a crucial upper house election approaches this July. As one Diet aide told me during my recent trip to Japan, Hatoyama has chosen a hard road (ibara no michi) and the most vexing policy issues seemingly as a show of personal development rather than political astuteness. A reoccurring theme I heard in Japan was that Hatoyama is not demonstrating leadership skills. As a result, support for his cabinet has dropped below 50 percent.

One example of this leadership problem has been Hatoyama's decision to try to hastily fulfill his campaign promises and his party "manifesto" rather than attempting to compromise with his country's various constituencies or stand up to coalition partners. He has thus painted himself into a corner . Ironically, as one think tank executive told me, the party's platform contained some ideas that were irrelevant to most Japanese people and some that were untested with the leaders of industry and government. This executive complained about Hatoyama's government budget public vetting process, which he likened to a Maoist charade, and the administration's soft approach toward China, which he felt embarrassed Japan's hardliners. Hatoyama's ambitious but laudable targets on carbon emissions and recent plan for economic growth were met with skepticism by the business community. Hatoyama's personal leadership skills are not matching with his high ideals .

My trip coincided with a controversial visit by the presumptive next president of China Xi Jinping with Emperor Akihito. The visit caused a stir with conservatives and the imperial family because it ignored scheduling protocol. On my way to a meeting with business executives in downtown Tokyo, I witnessed something I have never seen: Right-wing sound trucks were protesting Xi Jinping's visit by blasting messages in Mandarin rather than Japanese.

Although right-wing protests should not be considered a barometer of Japanese public sentiment, it should be noted that Japan is aging and in this way becoming more conservative. This episode also does illustrate another problematic theme of the Hatoyama administration so far: While the new government has righteously focused on helping the vulnerable in Japanese society, especially given Japan's relatively high poverty rate, it also has consistently managed to alienate powerful people in the bureaucracy, business, associations, media, and the U.S. alliance--creating what Ian Bremmer and Nouriel Roubini call a "no-party system" in which new faces in the coalition have few connections with the business elite.

Meanwhile, Hatoyama has become beholden to his coalition partners who are not after his best interests. As one executive told me, Mizuho Fukushima of the socialist party only cares about the bottom of Japanese society, while Shizuka Kamei of the People's New Party only cares about himself. Ultimately, many Japanese see Hatoyama's prime minister-ship as doomed because he is under the thumb of the DPJ's iconoclastic chief Ichiro Ozawa and is therefore unable to take real leadership.

Several people lamented Ozawa's recent direction of backroom bullying, away from his more principled past when he urged Japanese people to rely less on government and more on themselves. When he recently visited China with a Diet delegation, Ozawa bizarrely declared he was the commander of the People's Liberation Army. "The tail is wagging the dog," as Doshisha professor Noriko Hama put it in the New York Times and if Hatoyama fails to get control, the economy will backslide. The economy has already slid to its lowest level since 1991.

The DPJ's uncomfortable coalition has resulted in disagreements over the government budget and tension with the U.S. alliance. Despite campaign promises to cut waste, Kamei has urged Hatoyama to expand a government budget that is set to reach a record $1 trillion, sparking fears over Japan's debt-to-GDP ratio, which at 181 percent, is already the highest among industrialized nations. I happened to catch Kamei's mid-December press conference at the Foreign Correspondents' Club of Japan where he taunted Hatoyama and warned "so long as the CIA does not assassinate me, things will not go back to the way things were before, when Japan simply followed America's lead."

Gaffes from Japanese politicians are not unheard of but it is rare to come from cabinet members. Kamei's strategy appears to make the coalition so awkward for Hatoyama that he has to meet Kamei's demands on expanding social welfare. With a declining population and economic doldrums, the Japanese have long wondered if they were becoming a marginal player in the region or a "sick man of Asia," but with rhetoric like this cabinet's, the international image is more akin to Asia's dictatorships in Cambodia and North Korea, one executive said.

Several twists loom in the summer upper house election for Hatoyama. Most of all, electoral success will prove essential to the DPJ in regaining control of the agenda since poor results would only prolong the party's reliance on its coalition partners, making it more likely that it will continue to suffer from the perceived leadership problem. But until the election, Hatoyama must continue to accommodate his coalition partners on issues like the budget and the U.S. alliance but, in a catch-22, this accommodation is leading some voters to conclude that he is simply dithering on important issues.

Fortunately for the DPJ, its popularity remains higher than the opposition's and Hatoyama has been loosening up on his promises. But the party may calculate that its best path would be to replace Hatoyama. Speculation has already emerged over possible candidates: Deputy Prime Minster Naoto Kan is said to be a savvier politician, while younger transport minister Seiji Maehara has gained notoriety in his management of the restructuring of ailing Japan Airlines. The snag in this strategy would be that voters may conclude that the DPJ is no different from the previously-ruling Liberal Democratic Party and little change has taken place since last summer's elections after all. But if the DPJ fails, an already gloomy Japan will get gloomier. If the DPJ can't take off within four years, one of Japan's top public intellectuals Masaru Tamamoto told me, "Japan will be in a first class seat down the drain."

Photo by chez_sugi.

Wasting time as usual.

So glad to have my mad homework rush out of the way, for the last few days I have not slept, showered, eaten (well, the last two are a lie thank God) but what I have done - I have done rushed, stressed and depressed. Mostly thanks to the massive rush of school work. Dad's been away for like 9 days in Australia and just got back today so it's good to have him back home safe and sound. (and without swine flu!)

Thank God, not so keen on 'quarantine' to say the most. Bex Wilk's birthday on Friday, what to get her I wonder. Will probably end up walking home from Richmond too, and then I'll have to work again on Saturday. I really am dying for the holidays, a few days off... IN A ROW? Who would have thought. I miss the Wellington trip, it was so effing good. I miss Hannah! And Sam! And James, and Ella and Chris and Caleb and Joe and Nick! It was such an awesome trip, FML it's over and the teacher's hate us for it ever since!

Gawd, well good memories are always ruined by a nasty present. Positive much? Whatever, dinner time soon.

Didn't do any exercise today, but ate healthy-ish and will do a some make-believe skipping rope, press ups and sit ups later on. Better then nothing at least, dinner soon though. Hope it's healthy, forgot what it was. Probably chocolate covered pork fat, I should be so lucky*. Asterick's are so last year, remind me to get over them.

Ta-ta! =P

P.S. Someone make this blog a better layout. It looks filthy right now!

Ignore the last post.

Well yesterday's streak of positivity sure was short lived, lol. Back to being miserable, weight obsessed and feeling like the fugliest thing in the world! ANd yes, I'm well aware feeling = being. Well after the absolute shittest day, school and all the rest of it - I'm about ready for a cyanide pill. Unforunately don't have too many of those in stock, so will just kill myself by homework-induced boredom. Stupid History assignment, I'm REALLY over it. So much to do still, sick of highlighting the effing book. So boring and annoying, and then I need to script scenes for my drama piece. One of my scenes is mainly just one character by him/herself so how I will make it 2 minutes long and take up an entire A4 page (without making the font massive) is a mystery. One infact, I can't be bothered solving.

God, one minute I'm complaining about the rain. Now I want it back, was good I could go for a run today though. Quite head-clearing, well not really, sinus clearing, but not so much head.

Well... off for dinner, well it's probably not ready. I'll just wait around for it, gonna make a salad for lunch tomorrow. Need to step up the diet, and drink more water. And I need to stop tanning my face cause my hair (around my forehead) is starting to turn a sick dark orange colour, not such a good look! I'm prety good at having 'not such a good look' these days anyhow, who cares.

Dad comes back tomorrow, thank God. Don't think I'll be too dependant on family support, but every once-and-a-while it'd be quite nice. Even if... nevermind. Bye all.

New week, a new beginning!

As of today I shall be more self-confidant, won't be taken advantage of anymore and will stick to my new diet! I will also get all my homework done this evening! Is everyone proud of me? You should be!

I should probably chat to some people regarding some things, but like, I am pretty happy and I think life is going to be fairly cruisey for a while. Can't wait for Dad to get back home from Gold Coast, hope he doesn't have the swine flu or anything! Haha, but my chiropractor said it's not as big-of-a-deal as the media makes out. Obviously!

Have an amazing evening everyone!

Wait and See!

Well this blog has basically been abandoned, I admit, I am a fail blogger. I guess I just don't have as much to complain about these days, I mean, apart from looking disgusting and being actually overweight, I have little else to moan about.

The trash (friend-wise) has been desposed of long ago and things have since been great. I'm sort of over anger with certain friends, I'm sure they know who they are. It's just like... it was fun while it lasted, but definitely needed to be over and done with.

I'm in a good place right now, some very fucking weird twists of fate have left things... strangely positive. WHY AM I NOT COMPLAININ AND MISERABLE? Something wrong with me, especially with the amount of homework I have due tomorrow. FML. Ugh, I know I'm gonna mess everything up soon enough. Would be usual of me.

To-Do-List:

1. Do my homework
2. Loose 5kg (maybe 6kg)
3. Stop being lame.
4. Learn some social skills.
5. Stop speaking so camp.
6. Get my (learners) license.
7. Stop eating. (fatty foods, obvi)
8. Have good skin

Not in that order, infact it'll probably happen from top to bottom. More likely none of it will happen and I'll look back on this in like a month and think "Oh my God I did the opposite!"

Ugh, and god my Good mood has sunk just through writing this. FML. XD

'Work' (as if) Day

Well 'work day's basically over now, talk about work! Haha, 4 hours minimum work... That happened... not. There was a Teacher's Only Day at school today but it was changed into a 'Work Day' where we must work and then donate the proceeds to school to purchase something for the students. Umm, that's happened once in the three years I've been at school. So quite frankly, they can get fucked. I worked all day Saturday, and that was quite enough for my weekend so I'll take that 'work day' as a day off, TYVM. Today I went grocery shopping with Mum, cause I can always stock up on things I want. I hate dieting though, it's like 'YUM!' and then I remember I'm on a diet and can't have it. Oh well, I bought a new toothbrush and some moisturiser (which my dry flakey skin NEEDS!) which cheered me up a tad.

Anyway what else did I do? Well I didn't really get onto the massively annoying amount of study I seriously need to do. And I didn't study for my lisence either... hmm, I'm gonna be like a 40 year old driving virgin soon. Gawd, fuck me; need to get my lisence! Don't really need to drive anywhere though, guess I'd find somewhere to go if I could. Join the rest of the sad teen gas guzzlers, although I'm not life's biggest fan I'm quite eco-friendly - so pollution and shiz is really not cool. So... I'll give that a miss.

I went for a run today which I was quite proud of, but it was cold and tiring and I was aching, dying and spitting flem the whole way (as attractive as it sounds, ie. not very) so I was a bit over that. I was over it before I left actually, but whatever. Bodies don't become skinny themself, let alone toned. So when I got back I had never been more pleased to have soup for dinner! And my God it was good soup, I will be bringing some to school tomorrow in a flask.

God this blog is boring, lol! Talking about my soup tomorrow, I'm like an old woman. I quite like old woman, they often have good values and are also eco-friendly. They have good cooking skills and can make great feasts on little, and they're big on not-wasting too having survived through the depression and all that. Poor woman, and now we're heading into a new depression. Could the economy die at a worser time? If I go to uni or polytech or something (which i have to decide in a year if I will. Fuck!) I will need a student loan and be in debt and stuff, and if the world's money's dying I'll be screwed and so will everyone else. Gawd, guess I'll just have to work in retail forever... Joking. Never that desperate, well hopefully not. It's a pretty tiring job. Being the 'young guy' I think I'm supposed to be fit and energetic, I had to carry the most heavy mirror up and down the store the other day. Lord it was death!! The funny thing was there was this big burly guy I was carrying it for, and it's like "Hello?! I have fat not muscle!" God it was hell.

Anyway, that's me whinging. I'm quite frankly, over it. I revisted the online game Flyff today! God I miss it, everyone's so nice and sweet and all my stuff's worth fuckloads! So starting to play again! Loving it!

Catch Up

God, Saturday already! Well, Saturday nearly over I guess, so Sunday really. I can't believe how fast the holiday's are going! Jesus! I'll be back at school in no time and everyone will be really depressed and boring, and I'll be grumpy and sullen and have fights with all my friends and vowel to never get over it (even though I normally do straight away) and drag it on til it's not even worth it, at which point I'll decide to make up with my friend. Talk about my life.

So today I ate too much, and slept too little last night. So simply to say, I look and feel like death!

Now, what did I do since Wednesday... Hmm, what did I do?? Oh! Thursday I went for a walk up to the radio tower, Oscar and his dog umm... Forgot it's name, bugger. It was cute anyway, ANYWAY; saw Katie-May down the road and walked back home with her after that.

Friday? God, that was only yesterday. I literally have no idea what I did! Must have done nothing, but I sware I did... Oh! Went to Helena's! That's right, made muffins (which look GOD awful; but taste delish!) They're fatty as a whore though, so I must never eat them (already had 3. Save me) (From myself). We walked to Tahuna beach (which I was amazed she could do, let alone me!).

It's ridiculas how much exercise I do really and still my body continues to look fat and bloaty, my skin is dying and my hair is a huge wreck. Nothing can save me, it seems. Need a diet upgrade, might kiss carbs bye-bye once and for all. Do Weet-bix count? And dairy, and sugar. Well, need a little sugar; but a little it will be. Actually there should be plenty in fruit, so I'll just eff up.

Have a good one people, enjoy your night!

Lol, I got asked by everyone at work and my parent's friends if I was 'doing anything tonight'. Do I look like someone who has 'something to do'? I'm disgusting and I have no friends, sooooo much to do. -_- Kill me.

P.S. Literally do.

P.S.S. Work was hell today.

One more day down. A billion (of life) to go.

Well that's Wednesday over and done with thankfully, another Richmond to Nelson walk with Nick complete. Pretty much binge free also, some close calls at McDonalds and the petrol station but overall we did pretty well.

Not a lot to report really, we just chatted, sang (well, without knowing the words to like, every song) and, well, walked. Except for when we tried to run up Day's Track. Had to have a 15 minute breather after that, was dying! Not exactly in ideal running pants or shoes either. Anyway, over writing this blog right now.

Nothing much planned for tomorrow, except for a walk up the Grampians. Friday's plans have been moved to Monday (refer to previous post) so instead will go see Helena; who I have been meaning to for effing FOREVER. I'm looking forward to it, sort of mentioned to Dani we should catch up Friday but guess we'll do Sunday hopefully.

Freedom! Forever!

Well free forever, but two weeks is forever as opposed to NO day's off; aka, a normal school week. I'm broke as a joke! Didn't work last week, will work tomorrow but won't get paid until Thursday. Oh well, will probably be working til 6 too; saw the Easter sale ad and said it was til 6, unlike the usual 5. Well that's like, $10 more. Woot! (And no one ever gets it when I say $10, I get paid $12 a week but after tax it's only really like $10)

Anyway, had a quiet day; "a day of rest" as I like to call it. Not that anything too stressful has been happening, but school sure takes it out of you. Well, me anyway. I was watching 'Freaky Friday' but the quality was real bad for some reason and I've seen it like twice before so I think I'll give it a miss.

Today I was supposed to be taken to like, Hope or something to visit my parents friends for lunch but that didn't happen; so instead went for a massive walk to like Stoke, visited my Nana's grave in Marsden Cemetary which was sad; but haven't been there on my own before and was nice to 'pay my respects', as they call it. Not that it was that respectful, it's wierd but it is just nice to stand by the grave like; reflect. Whatever, it's lame to talk about; but it was nice. Afterwards I went into Stoke hoping to buy some water, but the damn shops were all closed cause of Good Friday today so that didn't happen. Walked around to Tahuna and a dairy was open there so finally got my water, was dying of thirst like the minute I left.

I cooked myself noodles and stir-fry veges for dinner, but then binged with toast, cereal and gingernuts. Not the healthiest but I'm sure my like, 3 hour walk will make up for it. Not that walking on the flat really does a hell of a lot, but better then sitting regardless.

TTYVVS!

Yay! Weekend!

Yay, after a rather workful week of school it is finally the weekend and I would be celebrating but I had to take the day off of work tomorrow for a Shakespeare thing I'm involved in. Now it is exciting, but... for Fuck I have like, four lines. And to give up $80 and my entire Saturday to stand around pretending I'm doing something is not quite my idea of fun, and I'm pretty sure there's going to be a pizza dinner. God help me resist. My diet will die if pizza comes near me, the fruit toast and noodles I had for dinner was bad enough! Let alone the gingernuts. XD

ANYWAY, apart from my diet going really* well the weekend is looking bright (if I look past Saturday). Actually, I lie. I'm completely fucked for school. On MONDAY(!) I have to be prepared to give my English speech, and it's four minutes long! Let's just say, I haven't finished writing it... let alone, PRESENTING. Fuck knows when this speech is meant to be prepared by, it'd be just my luck to have to present first. Better hope my improv skills are sharp. GAWD!

Sunday's plans are to hang with Ashleigh, Natalie and Brandon. We will shop, get some lunch (if there's anything that doesn't scream "GET MOOBS!") and see Slumdog Millionaire. I need to shop cause all my clothes are DISGUSTING and if I don't I will continue my life looking like a completely fashion-less homeless wash-up (which is scarily not so far from the truth as I'd like). Save me, anyway; that day should be good, but let's just hope I remember to do my speech. FUCK I'm annoyed, it was bad enough having to secretly write an entire essay in 10 minutes because it was due that lesson and I forgot. Fuck I'm getting useless. Need to get like, motivated. God knows how.

It's official:
I'm in a rutt.

The City of O-bee

Well I haven't blogged since Friday, gosh! Well I just didn't really get around to it but you'll have to build a bridge, and jump off of it. :-) Wait, was it just get over it? IDK, suicidal option is always better. Haha I have so much goss and so little tell.

WELL, Saturday I had work which was a good easy day and just worked my time and I bought a $40 straightener! It's hott, but sadly I don't reckon my hair looks terribly good with it but regardless; I will continue to use it! Then after work I was rushed off to Marahau (Abel Tasman) and got to see all of the changes my aunty had made to the place. The bathroom is a million times better and everything is just a lot nicer, she did very well! Horrible pillows though, I had a shocking sleep and I was cold as fuck!! Had like one miserable blanket, could have died! Shame I didn't actually, hmm...

Sunday I awoke at what I thought was reaally late but it only ended up to be 9.30am which means I must have been woken up and ever since tossing-and-turning since like 6am! Talk about early! Anyway after much time-wasting getting ready (as even after my bathroom time, I still emerged looking disgusting). I really am getting depressed about being fat and ugly still, might begin seriously looking at surgery options and begging my parents to pay. I literally need it.

School today was hellish, talk about accusations today! Felt like I was on trial "Are you anorexic?" "Are you wearing make-up?" "Are you going out with Nick?" Umm... yyyyeeeeEEEEEEeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeesssssss (aka. no) to the millions* of people reading.

Sitting in the corner of the school crying tomorrow lunch. I really wanted to wag some classes but I knew I'd get a pro-social (whatever that even means, well I know what it means aka. staying 2 hours after school, but the actual term 'pro-social' makes no sense. Whatevz.) so obvi I didn't.

Fuck I binged on cereal before! THREE weet-bix and then nutri-grain as well! With soy milk too, omg save me! Dare I mention the crackers with cheese and dip on them.

All of the above in normal English means, "I am going for an hour and a half uphill/downhill jog this evening." :-) This evening by the way, is in an hour and a half.

Edit: Bugger, I should have left for my run like half an hour ago, ugh will just have to do the normal Grampian walk. Toodles.

P.S. Oscar's a bitch.

Should be learning my Lines...

I really should be learning my lines from Drama, I'm playing 'Hecate', the lead witch from an excerpt from Shakespeare's "MacBeth", talk about difficult! I only know like a third of it so far, and I need to know it by tomorrow. We'll see about that! Right now it's not looking too positive.

I'm so annoyed cause it's POURING with rain and I need to go for a run tonight or I'll be obese forever! It's already looking that way but I'd love to counter-act it whenever I can, and by whenever, I mean now.

How about another lovely diet-related quote? Well here's a good one, for when you NEED a binge. "Chew the food but don't swallow it. Spit it in the bin. " Such a good idea, why I don't do it I'll never know. Hmm, anyway not much happening with me as of today. Might try and focus a bit more on school, I've got work on Saturday's but don't really need to think too much about that. There's not much I can do, I might keep an eye out if there are any after school jobs. That'd be good. Anyway, I'm gonna go over some of those Drama lines (as much as I don't want to).

Formal Blogging

To Whomever It May Concern,

Thank you for attending and reading the 161st installment of my blog titled 'Being Joey'. The 17th of March has been a day of particular misfortune, beginning with the second sleepless night in the past two days. Unfortunately by the time morning had reached the sky above my window, I had become quite uncomfortable and moved out of bed feeling tired and unhappy. I contemplated this and realized that a day arriving with instant exhaustion was one that would surely be a painful grinding sort.

Once departing my household the morning was chilling, I was grateful to have worn long pants and a long sleeved shirt with the added warmth of a jacket. Unfortunately as the day progressed (as depressing and boring as it was) onwards and eventually formed into an extremely hot day with direct sunshine and few clouds.

The medical disability I suffer with where excess body fat has accumulated to an extent that health may be negatively affected (otherwise referred to as obesity) is a factor in my lifestyle that needs to be reconsidered and the treatment of it shall be revised. A strict exercise and skincare regime including a detox and daily facial repair treatments may indeed be embarked upon.

The other neglected part of my life as of late has been my social life which during the coarse of my school day has pretty much fallen apart. I must set my sights higher on completing set meetings with friends to continue and improve friendships.

As for the rest of me, we shall all see - in good time.

Yours Sincerely,
Joey Sauer.

Worst Day

God I had the worst day. Could I have any less friends? No is the answer. Why is dieting so horrible? I mean, I had three weetbix for breakfast and an apple, nectarine and a salad for lunch/morning tea so was good most of the day.

UNTIL I got farking home and binged on ham, cheese and tomato BS Mum made me. AND a little 250ml thing of Chocolate milk, two crackers, a gingernut ANNDD... a glass of soy milk! The whole day is ruined, I may as well had McDonalds for breakfast, K.F.C. for lunch, Wendy's for an after school snack and Burker King for dinner. Sick of being fat, and being harrassed for being 'skinny' today was not helping.

For the love of Fuck, just because I've lost some (and none recently) weight doesn't mean I'm a fucking CRAZED starvation-happy anorexic. But if I see another carb... I will have a break down.
Lezzest problems right now, sooo not discussing them here.

Didn't get into fucking Stage Challenge, I auditioned and was looking forward to it but didn't get in. So fucking stupid, hate everyone involved! Except for Katie-May, cause she's nice. And not really in charge. Whatever, guess I wasn't exactly amazing at the auditions, still... -_-

Going for a run/walk tonight. Refuse to be lazy. Would go for another one now but... actually why don't I? I just know I won't go later on.

5 Steps to Success

I've officially realized why I am not satisfied, I have failed to follow the ingenious plan Nick and I devised to achieve anything you want in life by following 5 easy steps!

1. Be bleach-blond
2. Smell like piss
3. Smoke
4. Fake tan
5. Blue eye contacts

Honestly, how could you go wrong? Turning up to school like that, you'd make a million friends and surpass even the braniest people without even trying. It'd literally a be a dream! If there was a 6th step, it'd be "Eat only water and celery." but that's only if you're desperate. Which actually I am, so why haven't I included? Fuck would know. My day was a bit lame, woke up and it was like gloomy and drizzling, and it basically stayed that way for the whole morning. I ate like there was no today, all day! I really do need a dietition to be walking around with me with a gun to my head, actually that might encourage me to eat... How about with a needle promosing immortal life to my arm, and if I ate any sugar or fat it'd be rammed into my arm. That would honestly be the only way for me to stop bloody eating! I'm so fat and my skin's a mess, I need help. :-( But enough of that, well I'm not gonna go in depth with my classes.

I had... R.E., Maths, History, English, Media and I.C.T. Was a long day. Very long. Sadly* it's over, but I have work tomorrow. Oh well, need more money. I still need to go buy some Body Shop Body Butter or else I'll have a (dry-skinned) meltdown! It better be on sale too, or I'll actually cry. And not buy any. That'll show the bastards for calling off their sale. Anyway, what I am I talking about? Apart from shit all. Ta-ta! (Lol!)

Edit: I know there's thousand typos in the post and it was badly written, I was typing quickly cause I wanna go play Flyff. So STFU.

A Normal Post

Well here's a normal post, guess I ain't done a proper one of these for a while. It's funny when people tell me they were looking at this cause this is just like, what I do in my spare time cause I have no life and when I should be (but aren't) exercising. This is just my version of killing time, which is an awful thing to say, especially when I could be ending the world's obestity crisis! Which is very hyprocritcal when you look at the state of me! Joking with my skin? Anyway, so while some read, some listen to music, or draw, paint, play sports or whatever BS... I blog! Anyway it'll be funny to look back on as this is just really a diary, but I'm too attention-seeking to do it in privacy so hence; the whole world can read if they want.

Anyway today was a rather long day, Double Drama first thing in the morning which was a bit frantic and we had to write summary's and reflections which would determine the score of our performances. I honestly couldn't be farked with it, and we were being rushed so much and had to watch my (shockingly) bad improv performance, and I looked/felt/was sick which didn't exactly grab my attention and make me want to watch let alone, write about. Anyway once that was all over I had morning tea and I scoffed a can of tuna and some crackers (so much for dieting -_-) and ordered a damn chicken wrap! Even though it is mostly salad, still saturated in sauces and covered in a like, pita bread wrap thing. Joking with the gluten and wheat? I wish!

After break I had double Maths, which as you can imagine was a dream* but I did nothing in that class as Mrs (or is it Miss?) Ditchfield went on a bit giving us instruction on what we did wrong on the essay. Ugh, F**K! I failed the test so have to do another one tomorrow, f**k f**k f**k my life! Ugh, why am I so ugly? Anyway after my bingeful lunchtime (*shudder*) Miss Tomlin and Renee wanted me to come have this tiny part in this Shakespere performance. It's the tiniest part ever! But whatever, I get to act staunch and above it all, which really is just an exaggeration of reality. ;D Just joking (ish). Anyway then double History and we had a reliever so I was like UGGHHHH, but he turned out to be effing brill! I did actually 0% work, but I will do it for homestudy (aka: tomorrow's form/whanau class. Lol!) so Miss Middleton doesn't hate him, NEED to have that guy again! He was the best. Anyway then the bliss of escape from Hellrin was fully realized and after my successful completion of another day was complete (only a million more to go) I went on the bus home, and chatted to Katie and Elle about Stage Challenge which is now happening. I'll do it this year, so for people who want to see me dance it'll be a tad ROFL worthy. Whatevz, I have swift dancing skills (well I can roll my belly? Err, my belly has rolls? Lololol. xD). What the fuck am I on about? Ignore me, it's the food talking. (hence, why I've been talking for so long!)

Sick of typing, but not really. Toodles!

Edit: Look at this cute E-mail sent to me by the Vinnies co-ordinator Phillipa, she puts so much effort in, so sweet!